I haven't posted nearly enough in the past few months. I'm still a mess. I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life. I'm hurting. I feel empty, alone. I feel like I have no purpose. I'm sick of feeling this way. I'm sick of being sad. I have decided that 2012 is going to be a good year. It has to be. I am a mess emotionally right now and with the holiday's around the corner it doesn't help. I won't be posting again until sometime in January. I need to get my shit together. I need to be happy with me.
I plan to be healthier mentally and physically. Eating better, exercise, taking care of me. I want to feel good about myself and not have it be because of a guy. I want a real relationship, someone I can love, build a life with, but I can't do that if I am relying on someone else to make me happy. I'm never going to get rid of this empty feeling if I don't make some changes in my life.
I'll keep you all posted.
See you next year :)
-Melissa
